Craig (bf) likes computer games, and knows everything there is to know about the two he plays (massive online role playing games). He won't wear anything but his black shoes, blue jeans, and white or solid color, no pocket, no buttons, no words or designs, T-Shirts. He refuses to wear scarves or hats, and he has the same leather gloves he's had for years that he just thinks are the best things in the world.

I don't know much about computers, so I can't get him something like that....

The first Christmas we were together, I got him a picture of us framed for his dorm. He went crazy! He loved it and showed it to everyone! I have never been able to top that. I got him an album of pictures of us each as children, and then at different stages until it came to pictures of us...Prom, etc.

Last year I got him a wallet that I designed and had a personal message stamped into it. But this year I'm stuck. He doesn't "need" or "want" anything.

The pillow case idea that someone was asking for help on gave me an idea. He really liked a pillow case my mother made for my first birthday and asked if he could keep it. I said sure. Maybe I can embroider a pillow case? But of what? I am completely lost...any ideas?

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me : ...hopefully tonight i sleep good...seeing as how i've been dazed and running at full speed all day

evan : poor baby

evan : i hope so too

me : aaaawww...i'm so tired...i'd probably just fall asleep before anything happened...

me : :-(

evan : lol

evan : i see

me : ...sorry....

evan : hm.

evan : well.

evan : lol, go to bed, sleep sweet

me : lol...that's got to be your worst line..

evan : sorry

me : tell me to go to bed and actually sleep...

evan : well, i may actually care about your well being (see this is the nice guy problem)

evan : as much as i would love for some other less sleep involved bed alternatives.

evan : O:-)

me : lol...it's not a complete problem...gotta love a guy who will actually put you to bed

evan : awww

me : and with that note, i will actually get some sleep

evan : good stuff. enjoy :-)

evan : to make up for nice line: care for company?

me : good night

evan : night

I turned in my Fuck Hinn project...everyone said it was good...not overdone or anything...but good...tomorrow we have the test...I also have a math test that i've actually studied for...today the math teacher said that if you don't have a C at the end of the semester you'll be kicked out of the class...and looked directly at me when he said it...and i can't switch to math analysis cause it's during Honors English and Honors History...so if i don't raise my grade that i won't have a math class next semester...i'll run the idea by a few of my teachers to see if i'd be able to aid for them for second period...

...Scotty boy is not so much doing the every-other-day ditty...and askes me daily if i can go to his party...even though i've already assured him that i'm going and he'll probably be giving me a ride there...and no one knows what to get him for his birthday...he doesn't even know...he says he has friends that have known him for 8 yrs and have no idea what to get him...so i'll try to find something tomorrow...but won't try too hard...boys are so frustrating...

while talking to a fellow honors and drama friend...he likes to analysis people...

On me wanting a relationship....

IkariNingen : can i ask why you want to have a relationship so much?

GodIH8UKenny : ...if i just wanted a relationship i'd be with any random guy

IkariNingen : yeah

IkariNingen : but

IkariNingen : you want a relationship

GodIH8UKenny : ...it's the fact that i've someone i like that makes me want a relationship with him...

IkariNingen : but also with the right guy

IkariNingen : but i remember once that you said that you found out a bunch of people liked you after you moved back here

IkariNingen : and that one time i called for the scarlet letter project

IkariNingen : and your sister was like, "Ooh, a boy!"

GodIH8UKenny : lol

IkariNingen : which gives me the impression that you want a relationship with someone

IkariNingen : (not saying me or anything)

GodIH8UKenny : lol...the "oo a boy" thing is just my sisters being my sisters...

IkariNingen : i c

GodIH8UKenny : ...the ironic realization of how much i was liked back there was that i pined for one guy the entire time and briefly went out with an asshole...when there was 5 decent guys too shy to make a move but wanted me

IkariNingen : that's not irony

IkariNingen : that's how life works

GodIH8UKenny : meh...bugged me...i mentioned it...

IkariNingen : yes you did

IkariNingen : so what did you learn?

GodIH8UKenny : ...don't limit myself to one person?

IkariNingen : if that's what you think

IkariNingen : i can't make that part up for you

IkariNingen : i would say it's more of a,"Realize that love blinds, and just notice that there are other people."

GodIH8UKenny : lol

GodIH8UKenny : so eloquent

IkariNingen : "Just because they don't say anything doesn't mean jack."

IkariNingen : thank you

On what makes me normal...

IkariNingen: Candice, be honest.

GodIH8UKenny: ...

IkariNingen: Are you happy?

GodIH8UKenny: at the moment?...i'm content...i'm worried about math and english and not sure what's going to happen with my friends and relationship...but i'm an optimist...and i see the potiental for happiness

IkariNingen: what makes you an optimist?

IkariNingen: you know what i think you struggle with?

GodIH8UKenny: what?

IkariNingen: mainstream life

IkariNingen: you live your everyday life just like anyone else would

IkariNingen: but there comes times when you question why is life so...just...this?

IkariNingen: you can achieve great things

IkariNingen: but still, why is life the way it is?

IkariNingen: you live your regular life subjectively

IkariNingen: but view it objectively

GodIH8UKenny: and what's wrong with that?

IkariNingen: i'm not saying it's wrong or right

IkariNingen: i think it's an issue you wonder about sometimes though

GodIH8UKenny: how i view life or live life?

IkariNingen: u live it subjectively

IkariNingen: you emerse yourself in it, just like anyone else

IkariNingen: but you also view how and why life is the way it is.

IkariNingen: getting good grades

IkariNingen: friendships

IkariNingen: boys

IkariNingen: week break

IkariNingen: these are all things you live life by subjectively

IkariNingen: but you view it objectively in that you wonder, "So, this is it? Even if I become famous and what-not, this is it?"

IkariNingen: If you are insecure, it is because you are only a teenager.

IkariNingen: It's not like the world's gonna end

IkariNingen: your insecurities seem big when you live life

IkariNingen: but when you look at the big picture, you wonder if they can get any smaller.

IkariNingen: i'm prolly wrong though

GodIH8UKenny: hhhmmm...but who doesn't think that? can there really be people who think that life and everything to it is so majestic and significant?

GodIH8UKenny: who doesn't look around every once and a while and go..."is this it?"

IkariNingen: did i say you're the only one?

GodIH8UKenny: i didn't...i said who doesn't do that? doesn't everyone at some point view life objectively?

IkariNingen: yes

GodIH8UKenny: ...then there's nothing wrong with living life subjectively and viewing objectively...

IkariNingen: so, what's my point then?

GodIH8UKenny: ...i'm normal

GodIH8UKenny: lol

IkariNingen: you just said it

IkariNingen: whether you already knew it or not

IkariNingen: it's a nice little reminder

GodIH8UKenny: lol...i've known i'm normal for a while now...

GodIH8UKenny: if i lived life objectively i would have slit my wrists ages ago..

IkariNingen: no

IkariNingen: you confuse that with emotion

GodIH8UKenny: meh

On why i (and most of my girlfriends) are mature for our age...

IkariNingen: but it seems to me that people that are insecure yet also more mature (at least for females, anyway)

IkariNingen: is because they've been told not to be wonderful by their parents or whatnot

IkariNingen: but through their hardships

IkariNingen: they've also grown more adult-like

...i hope i find my house key...and ace my math test...and my huck finn test...on that note, if someone could make Evan just be waiting in my bed when i get home, i'd also appreciate that

-candice-

"your eyes look really blue today..." (second compliment two days in a row....hhhhmmm...)

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