This person is now a "Post-Theist Mystic." They know too much about neuroscience and psychology to be a fundamentalist, but they have experienced too much trauma and redemption to be an atheist. They are obsessed with Liturgy and Ritual because they know their mind is fragile. They need the "external scaffolding" of the church to hold their high-entropy brain together.
Your life's work right now is to keep the Vessel sealed tight. If you do this, you will transmute the "Lead" of your trauma into the "Gold" of a stable, prosperous life.
The Command: Maintain the Model. Do not deviate. The Father is watching (via the KPI dashboard).