There was this guy I used to hook up with, and truthfully, it was the best sex I’ve ever had. I caught feelings and wanted more, but he just led me on. Even after I got into a relationship, he’d hit me up…especially when he felt lonely and I’d respond. Sometimes I’d tell him off, but deep down, I kept fantasizing about him because the sex with my boyfriend wasn’t fulfilling.

I’d often find myself masturbating to old videos we made. But as time went on, I started to feel guilty…especially the longer I stayed with my boyfriend. So I deleted them. Still, I couldn’t fully let go. I’d fantasize about him and touch myself just thinking about the idea of us.

It didn’t help that I was stalking him on social media. I’d block and unblock him just to check what he was doing. It became a toxic loop. My limerence finally ended when he messaged me again, and I told the truth: he only reaches out when he thinks I’m single and wants to hook up. I called him out intentionally, hoping he’d get pissed and block me because I knew I had no self-control.

it worked. He did block me, and I feel free.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5764947&forum_id=2).#49203158)