there was a little green cooler full of sprite and bologna & i would look out the cracked plastic window and scream fake stock tips at the passing cars.

my dad said i had the "gift" (?)

he let me hold the Tv remote sometimes. not to watch.,. just to hold. because “power has weight, boy.”

there was a summeer where we buried all the check$s in the yard.!

every Friday. i asked him why we didn’t ca$h them and he said “the dollar is dying and you’ll thank me later, friend.”

i never had chance thanked him :(.

my mom used to braid wires into her hair. i thought it was just for the $ignal.. she said it made her “$ee better.”

mainlining i even once i drew on the wall with a big gulp straw and she screamed so hard she coughed blood into the aquarium and said the guppies were now cursed

i spent my 13th birthday in a coin laundry because the FEMA man said it wasn’t safe at the house.

at age 14 I asked if i was $pecial and my uncle said “you’re the kind of special they don’t fix.”

at age 15 i haven’t had a birthday since

i wrote a letter to the president and never sent it. i kept it in the safe. i kept everything in the safe. its still safe

the checks are still there . i think.

i started screaming at 17 and haven’t stopped.

they say if you scream long enough it becomes your name.

is that true? is that my name now?

if you’re reading this Mmainlining, i think i was always part of the Mahchine™.

i think pep tilapia and Big Gulp maed me$sick :(

i don’t want pep™ anymore i just want out friend plz thank u

i want to be clean

but i don’t remember what it was like before The HOse™

please tell me tell me the screaming ends

please tell me there is an outside :( friend i dont even care if gentlemen inte4rfere :(

i will redact myself if you just send a signal plz no more Hose

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