Really want to lengthy screed this motherfucker out in the name of content creation, but honestly it's fucking embarrassing. I'll take some questions instead.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4247427&forum_id=2#38131776)

"absolute best chick for me"

LJL at this 37 y/o delusional dork

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4247427&forum_id=2#38131834)

https://www.xoxohth.com/thread.php?thread_id=3892024&mc=30&forum_id=2

http://www.xoxohth.com/thread.php?thread_id=3891492&mc=46&forum_id=2

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4247427&forum_id=2#38131872)

I thought the entire reason it became a meme was because it was far more brutal than an ordinary failed date / ghosting

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4247427&forum_id=2#38132071)

So, I was casually seeing some chick, pretty much out of the game, but she moved a couple of hours away and got really clingy and annoying with her texts so I was debating cutting it off. For what it’s worth we had not talked exclusivity, although there was potentially an implicit understanding . . . enough to make me not want to go out with someone else just for the sake of doing it. Did a little bit of swiping in passing but wasn't planning on going out with anyone and was just letting my string of matches expire.

I match with the subject of the OP . . . she looks great. Her I do respond to a few times, but I figure it won't be worth the bullshit. Although she would be an upgrade over the chick I was already fucking, the current chick was cute enough and my favorite sex partner ever, such that I was speculating that the sex might even be a downgrade.

I let the convo die with the ball in my court. A week later I go to delete the app but take one last look at her--she had changed her profile description to something much more interesting that was basically my perfect girl, so I decided to reengage. We talk some more and this chick is saying all the right things. I joked about a date idea and the response was something like “actually I was thinking we could binge on some junk food, hit the weights to work it off, play some video games, and watch some anime.” At that point I was sold and had to meet her, just to see what she was like. Everything she said in our convo was exactly what I would want to hear, to the point that she seemed like PURE FLAME.

By the way, the subtext of why a chick this hot would show this much interest (which seems prima facie unrealistic), is that in my small city, I would be one of the only fit, successful professional dudes on bumble, and therefore of some value. I’m punching above my weight with her, and probably would not have matched her in a major city.

Met her for lunch for the first date (only thing we could make work in a timely way) expecting her not to measure up in some way, but it was actually the opposite). Her pics were probably an 8/10 or something but she was noticeably more attractive. And, she was actually funny and intelligent and there was some great chemistry, with tons of common interests. She would not have had to be nearly as attractive for me to want to date her . . . I would have still been excited about a slim, plain-faced 6.5 with this kind of rapport. Hug her goodbye fully expecting to set up a real date on the coming weekend where I can close the deal.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4247427&forum_id=2#38132047)

This is totally a false assumption IME. Ive always done much better in big cities than small towns.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4247427&forum_id=2#38132138)

My first impression of this chick was that out of literally every woman I had gone out on a date with, she was *at worst* tied for first with a chick I had met about 7 years ago who had stood out far above everyone else I had met since (not necessarily on pure attractiveness, but in terms of how interested I was). I was extremely invested here, like stomach in knots thinking about her.

She enthusiastically texted me minutes after the first date, but then later didn’t really answer one way or another when I was trying to make concrete plans for a second date. I put a few things together, both from her texts and what she had told me on our first date, and realized that maybe I had gamed her a little bit too hard—essentially her dad was a lawyer and she doesn’t want someone who is going to give her shit all of the time. I course corrected a bit, went straight up over the top romantic with her (I *never* do this), and tentatively got the second date.

Saturday she said she was busy with a project, which pushed things to Sunday, and with Game of Thrones I ended up getting slotted into lunch again. Not good at all, would have passed on it with any other chick. There were a lot of positive signs though . . . she looked fucking *hot* and had obviously spent a lot of time getting ready, and she was very reluctant to leave and say goodbye. We ended up sitting and talking for over 4 hours. I teased her a little bit about how hard it was to get a “yes” out of her for the second date, and she said her hesitation was that she was worried I might be too critical. She also had some indecisiveness issues from a past guy who treated her like shit. I stuck with what seemed to be working and tried to be sincere, told her I really liked her. She looked me directly in the eye and said “DDC, I don’t want to keep you guessing, I want to see you again.”

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4247427&forum_id=2#38132145)

Anyways, great thread. Plz proceed.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4247427&forum_id=2#38132157)

In the background of all of this, the chick I had been originally seeing had dropped her bullshit and had started being really sweet again, such that I would have still been interested in continuing with her if the other chick had not been in the picture. So as I’m working angles trying to get with one chick, another one is trying to make plans with me that I have to turn down and she’s being very nice about it, and I genuinely feel like shit about the whole situation, which is the closest I’ve come to being a cheatmo (depending on whether one credits an arguable implied expectation of exclusivity). I’m a sociopath with regard to just about everything else, but this situation genuinely weighed on me. I decided to go ahead and cut it off with the original chick rather than dragging it out, but delayed doing it for one day.

But back to the main topic, after the second date, I’m all motherfucking in on jumping through the hoops to get with this chick, so I’m very enthusiastically texting back and forth with her about game of thrones on Monday and Tuesday. Tuesday night I try to set up a third date at my place, with no response (not necessarily outside her normal texting pattern . . . she usually went to bed early and responded in the morning).

Then Wednesday around lunchtime I get this text:

“Hey, this is by far the sweetest message I’ve received in a long time. But I have to be honest, the guy I was talking to reached out and I feel really terrible right now. I need to sort my feelings out. It’s been a rough day.”

I go FULL CUCK at this point and tell her how much I like her, that I understand, and to take a bit of time to think. I hear nothing for about two days, so I ask her if she wants to see me again. She says no, and that she’s choosing the other guy, citing “the video game thing” as something that might cause problems. I told her I was surprised at that reasoning given that she knew I liked gaming before we met and had expressed enthusiasm about it, and said that I wished I had known her interest in me was contingent on someone else not being interested in her, to which there was some bullshit rationalizing.

If there is any doubt at all about the thorough cucking I received here, Bumble shows the distance you are from your matches with disturbing accuracy. During all of this, when I was stressing over how long it took her to respond to some texts, sometimes I would check it. This chick was incredibly routine—never saw her anywhere other than home or work the whole time I was talking to her. Before I unmatched her that night, I looked at it one last time, and she appeared at a mileage distance neither home nor work.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4247427&forum_id=2#38132386)

btw, why no pics?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4247427&forum_id=2#38132434)

don't tell us you omitted the part where you're a 37 y/o geek who thought he had an actual chance with an early-mid 20s fitness model who quickly and easily dumped him for a 25 y/o chad??? (and then whined about "this was my most toxic experience! i almost found true love!")

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4247427&forum_id=2#38132666)

now tell us the age of this girl!

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4247427&forum_id=2#38132695)

he seems to be dimly self-aware that it's entirely obscene and improbable for a 37 y/o such as him to be looking for "true love" with a 25 y/o good girl, and that he'll always get dumped for 25 y/o chad by any girl who is even halfway sane and not entirely wrapped up in "daddy issues"; and yet here we are

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4247427&forum_id=2#38132721)

This experience was so profoundly toxic for a number of reasons. I intensely liked the girl and she claimed to go for the "good" guys. Her initial purported reluctance was not knowing if I was a "nice guy" or not. So, I really opened myself up to her, showed some vulnerability, and gave it my absolute best shot, showing her the nicer side that I would usually only reserve for someone far into a relationship. I did many things that may have originally come naturally to me, but that I had unlearned over the years because they are ineffective, because she seemed like she appreciated them. She knew that I liked her a lot and was insecure about whether or not she liked me, and took the step of very clearly and directly telling me she was interested. And for a time, she seemed quite enthusiastic about that third date. Then the guy she was apparently really interested in finally got back to her, and I was suddenly of no value at all.

For whatever reason, this did not hit me very hard emotionally. I think my neurotransmitters had already been BLOWN THE FUCK OUT by the ups and downs of getting her to go on that second date and the stress of what to do about the other girl. So by the time she told me there was someone else, I just wanted it to be over one way or the other and was sort of relieved. In fact, I had already assumed that it wasn't going to break my way and was planning to stick with the original chick.

I did indeed see the original chick last weekend, pounded her out over and over and over, and she went back home, with me in a good mood. Then yesterday, the same bullshit that originally made me ready to drop her started again, but even worse.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4247427&forum_id=2#38132472)

and being a fitness trainer and you think she's some goody good girl? ljl

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4247427&forum_id=2#38132474)

I think they live in Fair Lawn or something

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4247427&forum_id=2#38134296)

Always keep a few in the rotation.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4247427&forum_id=2#38133859)

then started skimming and saw this faggot took a girl to lunch on the first date. and that was enough for me. i got the idea.

plus OP is trying to forcememe some TOP GOLF thing that doesnt even make sense.

i have no doubt this girl is a mfh 5.5 at best.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4247427&forum_id=2#38134491)