and the notion of "backsliding" is garbage purity culture nonsense. There are no commands in Christianity except profess Jesus is the risen Christ, and there certainly are no moral commands we must will ourselves into accordance with.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4614057&forum_id=2#40835887)

Consider each person a plant growing in gods kingdom. If you do the bare minimum you grow into a nice tidy shrub. Great. A couple of bugs will nestle in your roots and a strong windstorm or a flood might wash you away.

But if you really excel you’ve become a towering sycamore or redwood that can be seen from the highest mount, provides shade to those who take refuge beneath it, has branches that host birds that sing sweet dulcet melodies and endures for literally centuries

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4614057&forum_id=2#40836181)

Lol at telling yourself at night “don’t jerk off, don’t jerk off, don’t jerk off” and thinking you’ve attained virtue because you didn’t jerk off one night, or even 100. Virtue is from god and any attempts at self willing piecemeal moral rules is not only not virtuous but the very self righteousness Christians ought to guard against.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4614057&forum_id=2#40836225)

if you believe but are a completely fucking rotten person you are not going to be a happy soul in this life or in the next.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4614057&forum_id=2#40836319)

and if you're a rotten person that shows no improvement you don't believe. goddamn catholics are literally retarted

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4614057&forum_id=2#40836322)

no seriously what xtian denom r u

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4614057&forum_id=2#40836350)

Why are believers constantly warned against shitty behavior if their mere belief in Christ was sufficient?

Nobody is saying that you can work your way to heaven. It is only by God's graces that you can get there, but clearly we, as agents of free will, can fuck that up in the material realm.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4614057&forum_id=2#40837126)

the bible is a dialectical instrument meant to bring about in the believer a mental state that is at once captured in awe and disposed to surrender, and to paint a picture of what the consequences of obedience might look like - to provide the ideal towards which obedience is directed.

in no way do moral commands constitute an immediate binding requirement, nor are they intended as a demand that the believer will themselves into adherence. that is strictly antithetical to the nature of our redemption in the risen lord.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4614057&forum_id=2#40837154)

Its amazing to me that it took 1600 years for a couple of deranged priests to slowly work out this new concept. As if nobody had really properly interpreted a fundamental pillar of Christianity beforehand.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4614057&forum_id=2#40837192)

If it is by God's grace that we enter into heaven, then it is by our surrender that we allow his spirit to indwell in us. That we are broken in sin forecloses the possibility of exercising our will in a way that is anything but depraved. We cannot will ourselves to virtue. We can only surrender ourselves to God.

You stated it exactly right - we can only fuck it up. And we fuck it up by not letting God in. God sees us in our sin. We can let God in while we sin. We do not fuck it up with affirmative actions that are sinful, or that in some way offend God irreparably. We fuck it up in the negative, by failing to let God meet us in our sin. We fuck it up by failing to confess Christ - the divine person that meets us in sin.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4614057&forum_id=2#40837167)

Like in this tangible case with the OP and masturbation.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4614057&forum_id=2#40837200)

Now the works of the flesh are plain: immorality, impurity, licentiousness, idolatry, sorcery, enmity, strife, jealousy, anger, selfishness, dissension, party spirit, envy, drunkenness, carousing and the like. I warn you, as I warned you before, that those who do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God. Do not be deceived; God is not mocked, for whatever a man sows, that he will also reap. For he who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption (eternal death); but he who sows to the Spirit will from the Spirit reap eternal life. And let us not grow weary in well-doing, for in due season we shall reap, if we do not lose heart.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4614057&forum_id=2#40837303)

It occurs to me that the lowly in intellect (i.e., the Catholics) may find it necessary to establish, adhere to and punish violations of a "Christian" set of laws, modeled on the Pauline vision. And it is for this reason no surprise that the Catholics assembled the bible and proclaimed its inerrancy. But of course, the scriptural contradictions become immediately apparent.

The Catholics did us a wonderful service insofar as the holy scripture provides accounts of Christ's teachings, and interpretations of visions. But we are in no way arduously held to the standards of behavior, decreed by a spiritual master who only saw those standards for what they were after years of religious practice, contained within its pages. We are however compelled to attain the vision which motivated that master's brilliant writing.

Perhaps one can enter the kingdom of heaven adhering to laws decreed by a man with a supreme knowledge of Christ alone, but the contemplative Christian practitioner seeks to know, as is his right, Christ for himself.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4614057&forum_id=2#40837393)

first you need to stop watching porn. you can still jerk off but restrict yourself to imagination. that is tough but its easier to take small steps than going cold turkey

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4614057&forum_id=2#40836076)

What links/sites/tubes were you watching, just so we can fully understand the depths of your problem.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4614057&forum_id=2#40836355)

brother we are so broken in sin there is no way to use anything the way it was originally intended

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4614057&forum_id=2#40837229)

no way it's not good for me

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4614057&forum_id=2#40837759)

Doing it daily however feels very depraved / draining

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4614057&forum_id=2#40837703)

shame comes from the German word "to cover" so this could perhaps, just perhaps indicate that you are inhibiting your drive by feeding negative emotions like shame.

The orgasmic euphoria must be tempered with its inverse state, a self imposed penance for unrealized expectations in a shaming world.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4614057&forum_id=2#40837959)