Date: April 3rd, 2017 10:47 PM Author: Saffron set
took 500 micrograms (5 tabs) while camping with a small group of friends, another person started having an incredibly bad trip (hallucinated cops coming and thought the entire trip was an elaborate sting op) and i chain reactioned off of his.
i lost all sense of reality, the words "real" and "physical" had no meanings to me and was going around asking and texting people "what's real". And was stuck in an infinite time loop, doing and thinking the same things over and over, and couldn't get out until i started coming down.
prob won't ever take that much again. i don't want the fourth wall lifted.
I went to an extremely dark place too brother. Started with an intense "humans are squawking monekys" phase for a few hours, to meditations on lack of god/existence of malicious alien beings controlling all of humanity, to complete detachment from reality. 8 hours later I woke with the most depressed feeling I've ever felt. Lmao
Date: April 3rd, 2017 10:57 PM Author: Saffron set
i mainly just got the loop thing, which is quite scary by itself, because i'm pretty sure certain forms of psychosis are just being stuck in a mental loop and repeating certain things and thoughts over and over.
so when i started realizing i was in a loop, i was trying to break out of it and was scared that if i couldn't break out, i would be stuck in there forever, i.e. become crazy in the "real world", which i had a very tenuous grasp on by that point.
Yeah man I did that too at the end. Someone let me have keys to my car and I drove in a circle on the same block at 4am until the sun came up. The whole time in the "loop" of complete detachment from reality.
I fell asleep telling my brother over and over "will anyone ever find out about my thoughts tonight?" Worried that I'd be locked up if someone knew
Date: April 3rd, 2017 11:08 PM Author: Saffron set
the guy who got the really bad trip thought we were gonna meet with the cops to be driven to jail even while we were walking down from our campsite in the fucking morning, which was like 10 hours after we dropped.
No one who overdoes psychedelics has anything good to say about it. Only people who overdo molly and smoked weed (not eaten). Everything else can kill you.
Date: April 4th, 2017 12:09 AM Author: Smoky contagious theater stage puppy
1-do you think that personality/life vision can be improved in that state
2-don't you find something horrific about our consciousness and how limited it is? Like we have a tiny piece of a crumb of pie. And we can't even appreciate how big the real thing is?
1. not this trip in particular. but i have had other trips that gave me great insight and clarity, at a lower dosage. this trip was more of a glimpse into insanity, which i didn't need.
2. not really, because i don't think we can handle seeing the whole picture (i.e. all multiverse and non linear time). we are built to only deal with that little piece.
3. absolutely. i started timestamping to see that i wasn't actually stuck in an infinite time loop and also hoping that i would start coming down.
Date: April 4th, 2017 12:41 AM Author: Vigorous iridescent internal respiration principal's office
what happens on ego death? i found myself not able to just sit there on acid, which is something i cant do without acid either. i had to go on the computer, or i even went to the casino to the bar (it was night time) just to talk to someone.
Date: April 4th, 2017 1:08 AM Author: Excitant home quadroon
it is the act of forgetting who you are and other important details of your life, ceasing to be a person.. for me i go so far as to forget everything i know, including the concepts of life death self other
after a recent strong shroom trip i had made it into my bed and was tossing around, looking at the books on my shelf and trying to remember what "books" were; the image of those books arranged in that particular way seemed familiar to me but i didn't understand what these objects were
a memory creeped up on me, something about my mother, except i had to remember what a mother is and then the work of remembering things about my own mother
it all slowly fell into place but it was a real journey getting all my mind back
i find these experiences to be very beautiful, though in the moment it's a struggle
damn you've gone pretty deep then. but that kind of experience would be scary to most people, no? i guess it depends on your environment and mind set too.
i literally could not remember what "real" meant, which meant everything was frigging pointless. it was super nihilist.
yeah, this is the first time i broke through the fourth wall. is that the same as ego death? i suppose, since i wasn't even sure anything was real anymore, including myself.
it wasn't particularly enjoyable, but looking back at it now, it was still edifying i suppose.
Date: April 4th, 2017 7:39 PM Author: Laughsome deer antler
It's unnerving to say the least. Did you feel as if there was a higher power and if so was it benevolent?
For me it felt very much like the matrix. We have no free will and are just automatons leading meaningless existences. There is no point unless we break out of our programs.
Date: April 4th, 2017 12:32 AM Author: Purple Plaza Codepig
i've never taken acid but am convinced that had it permeate my skin once through accidental contact at a concert. my subsequent behavior for the next 12 hours can only be explained in that way.
Date: April 4th, 2017 7:28 PM Author: Laughsome deer antler
Similar trip on shrooms. Imagined I was a robot on a loop and so was everyone else around me. We were all on different tracks or programs within a large diarama or life size stage. I wanted to break out of the programming which lead me to do weird shit that was hard to explain to people after we came down.