Every trans person I know is fucking insane and I want out (self.TrueOffMyChest)

submitted 14 hours ago * by thisnotforlong3

I'm trans myself. When I first came out, I sought out trans groups on facebook to find support, others like me, that kinda thing. At first it was really cool knowing I'm not alone, even had common interests with some and befriended them. That's where problems started. These people are the most angry, callous, aggressive people ever. It wasn't long before the language of all my friends got policed, and I'd get messages with screenshots and the like, saying "your friend did this, why are you friends with someone like that?" and not wanting to lose the only connection to others like myself, I'd cut off that friend. Next thing I know, pretty much none of my old friends are around anymore, I just know these "leftbooker" trans people, who are nonstop sharing articles of dead trans women or screaming about how some crossdressing anime boy is actually a trans woman or some other shit. So much infighting, doxxing each other, calling each other names, telling people to shut up and die based on their gender, cisness, race, it was hell. I distanced myself from the groups and got some backlash telling me to kill myself over it. But I managed to preservers and then like, start actually engaging in my hobbies. For about a year my entire being was just trans trans trans. It was fresh and new and I wanted to get it off my chest. But then once I got used to it, I wanted to just continue being me, just different gender. That...didn't go well. Every single hobby I have is somehow problematic and these people will not shut up. They don't have a concept of just leaving something you disagree with be, no! Everything must be called out angrily! Long paragraphs dissecting every aspect, reaching in any possible way to find ways in which things I love are actually out to get me. Combined with the constant influx of dead trans people articles, telling me nobody but these other trans people will ever see me as a human being, really messed with my self-esteem. And to make matters worse, I'm constantly being sexually harassed by trans women. I was born a girl, but I'm a boy. They call themselves trans lesbians and keep inboxing me to say how horny they are, or show me their girldick. I hate it!!! I don't want to see dick! But that's being transphobic. Everything is transphobic. Everything out to get me, but most of all? The other trans people. I fucking hate these freaks now. All of them are constantly out to fuck each other and anyone that says hi to them, always making moves but you can't say anything because oh no that makes you a terf because terfs say trans women are predators!!! Why is not a single one of them fucking normal? All of them are just fucking weird. I don't think they're hated for being trans, I don't get any of that even from rightwingers. I think they're hated for being fucking loud, obnoxious weirdos that have mental breakdowns all the damn time in peoples faces. I'm sick of them all and regret ever coming in contact with them. If you're baby trans, just don't go anywhere near these people. They're unbalanced and everything they do just feeds into it. They celebrate being angry, calling it revolutionary, like being an aggressive asshole is somehow something difficult. I'm a really gentle and nonconfrontational person and they walk all over me and treat me like utter shit while hiding behind their identity and belittling others for what they were born as. And as time goes on, I realize more that these people don't even like me as a person. They collected me for my identity. To be part of their personal online army, to tag me in their big online drama to back them up, that kinda shit. And maybe to make fake outraged statuses about me when I finally fucking kill myself from the way they make me feel.

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