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Date: November 10th, 2010 2:31 AM Author: stirring sable garrison
post clips. i think that's what twist would want, if still with us.
*bows head*
i said it wasn't a good idea to scissor that hard. i said that. everyone heard me.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1475534&forum_id=2#16514279) |
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Date: November 10th, 2010 2:33 AM Author: Pearl parlor
nah. i look really fat in parts. my body looks pretty good when i arch my back though.
also his dick is huge so if he were outed it wouldn't be a huge deal.
also it's ARE video and only for ARE eyes.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1475534&forum_id=2#16514291) |
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Date: November 10th, 2010 3:03 AM Author: bateful disgusting shrine
she's real hot man
how do you know her irl
are you the choke fuck guy
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1475534&forum_id=2#16514405) |
Date: November 10th, 2010 10:09 AM Author: Aphrodisiac Cobalt Casino Digit Ratio
Some people are such retarded dumb asses. Who the fuck makes sex videos? You can kiss your political career goodbye. Oh, I wouldn't be surprised if the tape is used to blackmail twist one day. "Get back with me RITE NAO or else I'm sending the sex tape to your parents." What a clusterfuck.
Btw, welcome back, dawg.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1475534&forum_id=2#16514926) |
Date: November 10th, 2010 1:09 PM Author: Fighting Spruce Principal's Office
God you're such an insufferable twat.
And if twist is teleforce, which I suspect he is, he's a huge pencil-dick faggot.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1475534&forum_id=2#16516012) |
Date: November 10th, 2010 1:36 PM Author: Peach Passionate Menage
Is this the worst, cruelest post in xo history?
I guess so, I guess so.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1475534&forum_id=2#16516183) |
Date: November 10th, 2010 9:20 PM Author: Frum zombie-like organic girlfriend
*reads thread*
*dies a little inside*
*poasts just to express intense disgust*
*cries self to sleep*
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1475534&forum_id=2#16519864) |
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Date: November 14th, 2010 3:56 PM Author: stirring sable garrison
so you sent emails (one wonders how many) that were "mostly self-loathing" to a girl who didn't want to talk to you, but you did it in a way that wasn't creepy? one wonders how you pulled that trick off.
anyway, what does this mean? "all she had to fucking do anyway was just say 'STFU you faggot', and instead chose to post shit like this"
don't you think it's a little self-absorbed to assume that she posted this thread as an alternative to saying something to you? why do you think she's thinking about you at all, or cares what you think, or is doing anything in response to you whatsoever? you dumped her, man. when you dump people, they move on and forget about you. that's the idea.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1475534&forum_id=2#16549624) |
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Date: November 14th, 2010 4:03 PM Author: stirring sable garrison
you're fucking with your own head, you damn nut.
i admittedly don't know jack shit about the situation, but from where i'm sitting, it looks like you dumped a girl, she moved on, you heard about it through your social network (in this case it was the board, but it just as easily could've been mutual friends in a less lolxo scenario) and now you're sending creepy emails and smashing desks.
and why? what the fuck do you want? to get back together with her? i doubt it, and even if you did, you dumped her, so too fucking bad. grow some damn balls and realize what a stupid tantrum this is that you're throwing. move on, let go, and meet someone else. this isn't worth it, and you're making a fool of yourself.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1475534&forum_id=2#16549668) |
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Date: November 14th, 2010 4:05 PM Author: vivacious deep stock car
"all she had to do was..."
do you realize that you are an adult, and your actions should be within your control, not hers?
not defending her posting this shit, but you are coming off as nearly as unstable as she is.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1475534&forum_id=2#16549674) |
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Date: November 14th, 2010 4:06 PM Author: Big fiercely-loyal lettuce
Love is a risk. You should try where possible to take it with someone worth taking a risk on. But yeah. It's a fucking fist closed around your heart. All they have to do is squeeze, and you're trusting them not to.
Don't put your heart in that position with The Box. This is how it will wind up:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KBIdcUxdgo0#t=0m26s
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1475534&forum_id=2#16549681) |
Date: November 14th, 2010 4:06 PM Author: Maroon trust fund twinkling uncleanness Subject: sorry
i don't want to hurt anyone, but sometimes that's impossible - something that will keep one person from being hurt will necessarily hurt another. i wish it weren't that way. and it's entirely my fault that it is that way. i'm the one who made a series of bad decisions that put me and others in this situation.
i swear to god i'm trying to change. every time i do anything, i think about the consequences first. i honestly did not understand until august that actions have consequences, despite constant reminders. you guys have known that forever - that i make decisions on impulse, rationalize them until i carry them out (sometimes immediately, sometimes later), and then further rationalize them afterward.
in this case, there's no excuse or justification for anything i did, and there's no explanation for some of it. but all i can do now is look forward and try not to repeat my mistakes. please please please believe me when i say that i'm trying as hard as i can to be a conscious actor, to think of other people, to project the consequences of each potential action and to choose the one that i know is the best, not the one that i've compulsively fixated on. i swear i'm doing this and i'm making progress.
and i don't want to inappropriately beg for sympathy here, but i want to say that this has not been easy for me. i don't know if it's a chemical thing or a proportionate response to the circumstances or what, but the past few months have been very, very difficult for me. (see, for example, http://xoxohth.com/thread.php?thread_id=1479391&mc=61&forum_id=2 - and yesterday was a good day.) i'm not claiming to be a victim of anything but my own shitty decision-making skills; i'm just saying that my reprehensible actions have left *me* in an intolerable amount of pain, too. at least i'm not coming out unscathed. while i don't want to kill myself (much different from wanting to die) and i'm too much of a pussy to hurt myself too badly, sometimes i cut myself as punishment. it's the least i can do. i know that i deserve to die but i know how much that would hurt my family and friends. it's another lose-lose thing: the world would be better off without me, but it wouldn't know it. so i have to stay.
sorry for the melodrama. i'm not addressing anyone in particular here - there are some people whom, in my moral utilitarian calculus, i've decided i may not address directly - but all of this needs to be said, and why not announce it to all six megaposters on a public forum?
i'm really, really going to try not to post from now on. can't make any promises. as always, anyone who wants to shoot the shit, tell me i'm a disgusting whore, or offer a cure for my misery can contact me at xoxothebox@gmail.com.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1475534&forum_id=2#16549690) |
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Date: November 14th, 2010 4:08 PM Author: erotic becky boistinker
i don't want to hurt anyone, but sometimes that's impossible - something that will keep one person from being hurt will necessarily hurt another. i wish it weren't that way. and it's entirely my fault that it is that way. i'm the one who made a series of bad decisions that put me and others in this situation.
i swear to god i'm trying to change. every time i do anything, i think about the consequences first. i honestly did not understand until august that actions have consequences, despite constant reminders. you guys have known that forever - that i make decisions on impulse, rationalize them until i carry them out (sometimes immediately, sometimes later), and then further rationalize them afterward.
in this case, there's no excuse or justification for anything i did, and there's no explanation for some of it. but all i can do now is look forward and try not to repeat my mistakes. please please please believe me when i say that i'm trying as hard as i can to be a conscious actor, to think of other people, to project the consequences of each potential action and to choose the one that i know is the best, not the one that i've compulsively fixated on. i swear i'm doing this and i'm making progress.
and i don't want to inappropriately beg for sympathy here, but i want to say that this has not been easy for me. i don't know if it's a chemical thing or a proportionate response to the circumstances or what, but the past few months have been very, very difficult for me. (see, for example, http://xoxohth.com/thread.php?thread_id=1479391&mc=61&forum_id=2 - and yesterday was a good day.) i'm not claiming to be a victim of anything but my own shitty decision-making skills; i'm just saying that my reprehensible actions have left *me* in an intolerable amount of pain, too. at least i'm not coming out unscathed. while i don't want to kill myself (although i want to die) and i'm too much of a pussy to hurt myself too badly, sometimes i cut myself as punishment. it's the least i can do. i know that i deserve to die but i know how much that would hurt my family and friends. it's another lose-lose thing: the world would be better off without me, but it wouldn't know it. so i have to stay.
sorry for the melodrama. i'm not addressing anyone in particular here - there are some people whom, in my moral utilitarian calculus, i've decided i may not address directly - but all of this needs to be said, and why not announce it to all six megaposters on a public forum?
i'm really, really going to try not to post from now on. can't make any promises. as always, anyone who wants to shoot the shit, tell me i'm a disgusting whore, or offer a cure for my misery can contact me at xoxothebox@gmail.com.
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Date: January 12th, 2011 3:22 PM Author: Concupiscible jet-lagged range
man
are there even any woc here at all?
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1475534&forum_id=2#17037436) |
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