Date: February 7th, 2016 5:57 PM Author: Boyish Shimmering Heaven
yeah everything would be different if i'd fumbled awkwardly in the dark with that 5 i didn't realize liked me, i'd have a few more images in my "spank bank" now and that would put a completely different spin on the ruinous hell that is my existence
Date: February 7th, 2016 6:12 PM Author: Boyish Shimmering Heaven
that one girl had nice big tits. not as big as the tits i can see on the internet, but if i had touched them, maybe even ejaculated on them, it would have completely altered the trajectory of my life, changed the choices i would have made, given me all sorts of confidence i don't have now. if only i had put my pathetic sperm capsule in her manured and eroded sludge farm, her half-enthused moans and squelching internal mucosal squirms as she thought "is this what i'm supposed to do? is this what a girl is supposed to sound like? am i supposed to be moving at all? it feels kinda good, is it supposed to feel better? am i supposed to be having an orgasm soon? am i supposed to be thinking about movie stars? am i supposed to be talking dirty? is he enjoying it? is he too focused on my tits? is he trying to flick my clitoris or is he just trying to spread my legs? are we going to have a relationship after this? does he want to? do i want to? would people think i'm a slut if they knew? does it matter? if the window were open would people be watching? does he watch a lot of pornography? does he like my body better than porn stars? will he finish soon? does he want to? do i want him to? how many girls has he done this with? did he tell them he loved them? did he love any of them? have i ever been in love? do i love the way this feels or do i just like it? is this better than eating a brownie? is this better being high? will he tell his friends about this? will he tell them he loved how it felt or will he tell them he just liked it? am i the best he's had? would it feel better if someone else were doing it? is his penis too big or too small or just right? am i getting closer to having an orgasm or is my bladder full? am i going to finish? is he going to finish? is he going to pull out? was that nice where he came or was that objectifying or was it nice to be objectified? is he going to sleep now? is he satisfied? am i satisfied?" then everything would have been absolutely, totally different, i'd have a bounce in my step, i'd age slower, other women would know just by looking at me that my number was one higher than it is now and that extra number, that extra point, would convince them i'm the man they should be with, a real man, and snowball into five, ten, twenty extra points, twenty more epiphany encounters, transformative and true, a thoroughly different person with so many more points i could cash in now for some strength and some happiness as i thought of all the extra tits and cunts i'd seen and touched and how they'd changed me as they surely had.