I just need to scream into a void. Any void.

I have three children with “John”. He was the love of my life. Life was perfect before “Jill” was born. Jill is extremely autistic. She’s textbook. Screaming, meltdowns, aggression. We lost everything as a family the moment we realized she isn’t going to improve.

She’s beyond expensive. I had to quit my job when she was 4 to care for her. My other children live in fear of their sister. She hits, breaks things, screams, tears things apart, spits. No medication has worked. No counseling, no therapy. Nothing. My husband and I have had a dead bedroom ever since I quit my job pretty much and it was winding down severely before then. I just can’t do it anymore.

A few days ago I begged my husband to take the day off of work so I could clear my head. I felt myself slipping into my own mental breakdown. He told me no as money was tight and we couldn’t afford it. While it’s true we couldn’t, no one else is willing to take care of Jill. I couldn’t stick her on the only people that would which are my parents. They’re far too old to ever deal with a child hitting them with their full force.

Jill got into a fight with one of her older siblings and I just lost my shit. She hurt my child badly and I just lost it. Their other sibling had to help rip her off and call their father to come home. I screamed at their father that it’s over. I hated Jill, I hated him, and that we’re getting a divorce. I said many hurtful things but nothing about my other two children.

I drove over 4 hours with my two kids to my sister’s place. I had to get away. My husband (ex husband? I don’t know) has been blowing up my phone. I just can’t do it anymore.

I miss being a good mom. I miss my job. I miss being able to go to the zoo with my kids. I miss being able to go to their school events. I miss eating as a family. I miss restaurants, friends, holidays. I miss having money. I miss life from before Jill. I miss my two kids. I miss my husband.

I just needed to vent. I know I’m a shitty mom. I know I’m not a good person. I know I deserve it. I just needed to vent somewhere. I don’t want to face reality. I just want to wake up from this nightmare

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5527807&forum_id=2Reputation#47655586)

But the autistic child might need some treatments as well.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5527807&forum_id=2Reputation#47655689)

This is what a perfectly good, omnipotent being would do if it was up to him. And you're an evil person if you think otherwise

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5527807&forum_id=2Reputation#47655726)

Checkmate, heathens! Yeah, this subhuman evil creature might look and act like the demon-possessed girl in The Exorcist. But we simply cannot end its existence. That would be a heckin Sin

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5527807&forum_id=2Reputation#47655792)

I hope hell actually is real so God can send you there, where you belong, along with instantiations of evil like this thing

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5527807&forum_id=2Reputation#47655873)

In what sense is this thing "human?"

I'm not preoccupied with "money" and "labor." I'm "preoccupied" with the ACTUAL Human Lives of this woman, her human children, and her husband - lives that are being destroyed because of this psychopathic, evil creature

Any "money" or "labor" spent "caring" for this worthless parasite could be spent on actual human beings who have worth - worth being defined as mattering to other humans. Not a single person on the planet would be negatively affected by killing this thing - in fact, many lives would be improved. It's worse than worthless. It's actually just evil: a net negative to the collective human condition

I will never cease to be amazed at the utter cowardice of the Eternal Eloi of the modern west. Complete and utter cowardice. Cowardly weaklings to the end, making excuses for evil even as it closes in around them on all sides

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5527807&forum_id=2Reputation#47656398)

oh shitlibs are destroying your society? wow, arrogant of you to think things could be "different" or "better"

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5527807&forum_id=2Reputation#47662095)

if you just start out by assuming that there is a perfectly good god, then you can always just punt to "there must be a secret reason." it makes the belief completely non-falsifiable, since then there's nothing you would ever accept as evidence against a perfectly good god.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5527807&forum_id=2Reputation#47671760)

We have a moral mandate from an omnipotent, perfectly good being to treat all "human" biomass equally. It doesn't matter how many good, innocent people suffer because of it. This worthless collection of carbon atoms MUST be allowed to exist, and its existence MUST be facilitated by any means necessary.

Never mind that before 150 years ago, the most devout Christian on planet Earth would have performed infanticide on this evil monstrosity without even hesitating for a single second or having any moral compunctions whatsoever. This woman is an EVIL PERSON for even entertaining THOUGHTS that this "child's" existence might not be a good thing

There is no higher moral good than the indiscriminate production and subsidization of human biomass at the expense of existing human beings. Period.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5527807&forum_id=2Reputation#47655766)

Our civilization has become a warped and twisted religious cult devoted to the worship of evil, parasitic darkness. It has to be stopped

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5527807&forum_id=2Reputation#47655802)

all the other kids are totally normal and reasonable. but now everyone sleeps with locked doors at night.

some people are just born bad, call it autism or sociopathic , etc but...

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5527807&forum_id=2Reputation#47655788)

“Great move, mom”

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5527807&forum_id=2Reputation#47655948)

Husband seems delusional and claims "love" will "heal" the autism and refuses to consider a group home or other options. She's stuck at home trying to deal with a kid AND husband who can't be reasoned with, and it's fucking up her other two kids' lives.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5527807&forum_id=2Reputation#47660306)

it's actually the woman's fault that she's forced to care for an evil demon spawn freak creature because it's illegal to just kill it and her "husband" is a useless christcucked faggot

women amirite haha what a bad person

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5527807&forum_id=2Reputation#47660317)

good luck with uhh whatever

lmao @ (((you))) of all "people" getting upset over this

go spit in a tube, you goblin faced kike

better yet, go try to marry some 90 iq google eyed zogbot and then poast about it here, (((jewish war machine)))

but yes obviously I’m obviously the one projecting

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5527807&forum_id=2Reputation#47662406)

shockingly, she turned out to be really self-absorbed and selfish. it didn't work out.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5527807&forum_id=2Reputation#47657222)

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(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5527807&forum_id=2Reputation#47672513)