What realization or shattered illusion impacted you the hardest?
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Date: December 20th, 2015 10:15 PM Author: vivacious preventive strike
toss up between realizing that being technically smart is not equal to career progression in corporate america and most american women are TTT slime pits
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29423723)
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Date: December 20th, 2015 10:20 PM Author: marvelous onyx idea he suggested location
How untrustworthy and irrational women are. They are almost all driven by their emotions to an extent that was hard for me to appreciate.
The fact that the materialist view of nature is almost certainly correct and we live in a godless and meaningless universe.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29423748) |
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Date: December 20th, 2015 10:26 PM Author: Dead Mint Friendly Grandma Newt
the nature of free will is hardly sound science, and there are many different takes on the deterministic mind (compatiblism, incompatiblism)
if the sun was just a little closer to the earth, there would be no life. if the big bang were just a bit hotter, there would be no life. there's too much coincidence in a purely materialist worldview that doesn't account for the order and complexity of the universe.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29423791)
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Date: December 20th, 2015 11:01 PM Author: marvelous onyx idea he suggested location
I read a while back that Peter Thiel is a Christian, which I thought was interesting. I am extremely open minded, but the balance of evidence is not in Christianity's favor.
http://americamagazine.org/content/all-things/faith-technology-qa-peter-thiel
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29424032)
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Date: December 20th, 2015 11:28 PM Author: Green sexy affirmative action
jfc your pathetic linking to shitlib hitpieces is making me lean very strongly toward your being an intellectually bankrupt asshole who hides his disdain for opposing viewpoints beneath a veneer of politeness.
well i'm not going to be polite and i have no more use for your close-minded idiocy. i'll just tell you these 2 things in the event you are actually sincere about learning about the truth:
(1) 4 months ago i was mostly (not firmly but mostly) in the same camp as you are. today, after reading, thinking and practicing meditation and other practices i am 100% certain that materialism is utter and total bunk and it has nothing to do with any fucking agenda driven sam harris blog posts or esquire magazine articles.
(2) i'm not christian and didnt grow up as one but in the last few months i have develped respect for all religious tradiitons. i read the book of matthew for the first time yesterday and it was only after i literally adopted the maxim espoused by jesus that i described in the post linked below that i was able to arrive at my new point of view in (1) above. http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075018&forum_id=2#29417892 - see also matthew chapter 13, verses 13 and 14.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29424205)
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Date: December 20th, 2015 10:23 PM Author: Khaki Balding Hell Patrolman
that im not the most important being in the universe, im just another thing in it.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29423766)
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Date: December 20th, 2015 11:31 PM Author: concupiscible parlor
1. there is no such thing as a pure meritocracy
2. VAST majority of your friends are not your true friends but merely glorified drinking buddies
3. life and the universe have no inherent meaning
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29424238) |
Date: December 21st, 2015 1:01 AM Author: rambunctious slippery property round eye
1. That liberals are not necessarily as pure and "honest" as I thought; the are similarly as motivated by selfish desires. The are not more "just" than the right.
2. Probably something about the internal focus/lack of external awareness by women, probably just another way of saying they are narcissists in a way I didn't fully appreciate
3. Very practical but that elite UG students are not nearly as "godlike" in their pursuits as I thought--I really thought the all had special gifts and were truly better people, but I've come to realize that's flawed for so many reasons
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29424915) |
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Date: December 21st, 2015 1:12 AM Author: rambunctious slippery property round eye
how can u possibly say that
I was a true hard lib for many many many years, it started in HS, I saw bullies beat up on weaker kids and it fundamentally made me believe in some pretty hardcore ideas of justice and protection of individual rights and shit
but the vehicle through which that takes place, the left, the dems, whatever, I increasingly find is not an honest broker
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29424987) |
Date: December 21st, 2015 1:27 AM Author: razzle-dazzle learning disabled gaping
1. women get wet watching monkeys on the discovery channel
2. spiders are sentient and they are coming for us
3. everything will fade and crumble, not just me but all my friends, my progeny, and my works
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29425046) |
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Date: December 21st, 2015 4:24 PM Author: Ruddy supple ladyboy orchestra pit
Santa really seems to fuck up american kids.
I grew up (at least before I came mainland) to believe in the Three Kings which made way more sense since it was, least, biblical.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29427833)
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Date: December 21st, 2015 2:57 PM Author: flushed glittery whorehouse windowlicker
yeah this
also, that its extremely hard to keep almost anything you care about from turning to shit
when you try really hard at something, all you've done is created unsustainable expectations of future performance from others that you'll fail to acheive
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29427298) |
Date: December 21st, 2015 1:56 PM Author: Stirring saffron black woman
The realization that my life won't look anything like the life I imagined I would be leading at this time when I graduated law school.
We live lives thinking (and hoping) that certain things will come at a certain time and in a certain fashion. For example:
- We'll graduate, and we'll move up the corporate ladder (maybe with some stumbles, but still a gradual climb) as long as we work hard and churn out above average work. We'll save enough to be comfortable and to make splurges here and there, but we'll never have massive life events happen that affect our earnings one way or another.
- We'll eventually meet someone, date them for a year and a half, and realize that this person would make a good life partner ("you'll do"). We will marry this person at some country club or 5-star hotel where the beef dish will taste just like every other beef dish ever served at a wedding between two upper middle class professionals.
- We will have children, and will own a home in a suburb wealthy enough to have a top public school, but will still debate whether to send our kids to private school. We will get a Baby Bjorn, and likely opt against a minivan, then opt for it when being practical starts trumping being cool.
- We will go to the restaurants that the New York Times and Conde Nast calls "the best restaurants of the year" and remark on how inventive the cuisine is.
- We will experience an expected amount of tumult - job losses, health scares, the odd tragedy here and there - but nothing will floor us and we'll be on our feet in no time.
I thought all of the above would be me. I've experienced most of what's described above, but my life looks absolutely nothing like I pictured it to look. And the next 10 years will probably look absolutely nothing like how I pictured they would look in, say, 2010.
Despite the fact that I have a job I love, a great group of friends, and an SO that I'm pretty damn sure is the one, I'm still a bit destroyed by the fact that shit doesn't look the way it's supposed to.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29426885) |
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Date: December 21st, 2015 2:43 PM Author: Stirring saffron black woman
I'm the opposite...sort of.
16 year old me - shit, even 25 year old me - would be damn embarrassed of 35 year old me.
25 year old me would give 35 year old me this pep talk being like "you're a fucking failure, how the hell did you let yourself go, all your friends think you're a sideshow joke."
I'm probably happier (or at least in a much better mental place) now than I have been in a long time, and perhaps ever. But I still have this nagging 25-year-old me on my shoulder.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29427174) |
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Date: December 21st, 2015 2:49 PM Author: Stirring saffron black woman
I do. Completely.
Without revealing too much, I probably reached the apex of success in 2011/2012. I probably was the most fucked up mentally then and completely incapable of really connecting with other human beings on a deep and intimate level, but I had hit certain benchmarks and was on the way to exceeding further benchmarks when a major health scare struck.
2013-mid 2015 was devoted to clearing the rubble and rebuilding my life, brick by brick. Much of my angst now stems from the setback and how those years were a lot, lot friendlier to most people I know who didn't have to deal with shit like that. I don't assign blame anywhere, but I always think "what if this didn't happen to me".
The other side of me is like "I could be dead now if other crap didn't break my way, so spend more time smelling the roses."
And yes, I do have a number of friends who think I'm the sideshow joke, like Taco in The League.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29427240) |
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Date: December 21st, 2015 3:05 PM Author: Stirring saffron black woman
Looks like we had opposite paths. What happened to you and your SO? Like you say you didn't recognize yourself, but how did she change?
I was playing with the 1%ers like 8-9 years ago when I was still pretty young (especially mentally) to have all of that fucking money.
At the same time, those were some of the worst years of my life.
I then found a way out to a career I loved which gave me heaps of freedom and money - not 1% money, but 5% money with the option to work from anywhere in the world with a working phone and internet. I got to pursue some personal (non-professional) goals and got close to meeting some of them.
Then I got sick and everything fucked itself up. Burned through most of the money in the rebuild (not going to explain further).
I always thought to myself "ehhhhh I can always marry rich" but the person I'll probably end up marrying (if shit goes the way it's been going) is another entrepreneur whose life (and earning power) has taken a few turns. Our lives will be more like the "fun adventure where we ride and die for each other" rather than "$2M Tudor in Bronxville and let's meet at the club for lunch after we drop the kids off at horseback riding lessons." And I don't know if I'm cool with that.
I guess we can always wonder what happened if we didn't do X as much, or if Y didn't happen to us. Pretty pointless exercise, really. But it doesn't make it any easier to deal with the day-to-day.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29427330) |
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Date: December 21st, 2015 3:16 PM Author: Stirring saffron black woman
But is it for you? You still say that you're searching. For what?
Are you working now? Did you do anything with the knowledge that the strive-for-$ path isn't for you?
I agree that we're both lucky we came to these realizations while single. Think of how many breadwinners hate their jobs but have a dependent spouse and kids in private school, so they're stuck being wage slaves. They now exist to serve as a bank for their spouse and children.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29427417) |
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Date: December 21st, 2015 3:30 PM Author: effete sanctuary useless brakes
Think ultimately, I just want to feel fulfilled and not constantly seeking validation through spending a shit ton of money, climbing corporate ladders etc, banging chicks. I don't seek prestige anymore but I know the attention thing from the opposite sex is a big issue for me. Not sure why as I can hold my on and as far as I remember, only one bad experience with women.
I'm still pushing hard now but know how I want to get out of it and have a timeline for it. Before, I thought success = money = happiness. I don't think that at all anymore. I think money gives you flexibility and options and success is relative which is iterative and infinite for strivers.
The working man is a sucker indeed.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29427492) |
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Date: December 21st, 2015 3:53 PM Author: Stirring saffron black woman
Validation from the opposite sex is huge. I think that's a reason why so many people, especially single doods, keep striving. Money does equal success with women, and the more money you have, the greater your dating options are.
For girls, the more money you have access to (not necessarily earn yourself), the easier it is to make yourself look a certain way which increases your social status. If a girl rolls with a higher status group of girls, she attracts higher status (and higher dollar) doods.
I used to think success = money = happiness. Then, I thought success = [some equation balancing out money, time, freedom and fulfillment of other non-monetary goals] = happiness.
Now, I think that success = having a life that looks the same as the lives of people who were similarly situated to you when you were 25.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29427636) |
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Date: December 21st, 2015 5:24 PM Author: Stirring saffron black woman
"Most relationships are a combination of self-interest, convenience, and complacency."
I'll cosign this. That's why it's so refreshing to meet someone who actually evaluates you as another human being.
I think this is the difference between platonic friendships and relationships. Some of us enter into and maintain friendships for self-interest, convenience, and complacency, but much more so for relationships.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29428123) |
Date: December 21st, 2015 2:42 PM Author: Soul-stirring crackhouse
politics is fundamentally very tribal, people can rarely see things outside of their fundamental self interest, and it's rare to be able to find people with whom you can talk about it dispassionatly.
we have a tremendous amount of control over the course of our lives based on what we eat, how hard we work, etc. but we're fundamentally all VERY limited due to our genetics/personality and, more importantly, major events (such as disease, accident, and injury) which are 100% outside of our control/
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29427173) |
Date: December 21st, 2015 3:19 PM Author: indigo private investor
Three big ones:
1) Will never make as much as my father, nor will I live the lifestyle they lived.
2) There is no such thing as job security, any high paying job can end at any time.
3) Women think much differently than men do, i.e. beta kills.
Edit: 4th - traditional WASP values, which include practicing Christianity, are superior to all others.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29427436) |
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Date: December 21st, 2015 4:08 PM Author: Dead Mint Friendly Grandma Newt
Protestants = Useful Goyim. This says it all:
One school of thought attributes Calvinism with setting the stage for the later development of capitalism in northern Europe. In this view, elements of Calvinism represented a revolt against the medieval condemnation of usury and, implicitly, of profit in general.[citation needed] Such a connection was advanced in influential works by R. H. Tawney (1880–1962) and by Max Weber (1864–1920).
Calvin expressed himself on usury in a 1545 letter to a friend, Claude de Sachin, in which he criticized the use of certain passages of scripture invoked by people opposed to the charging of interest. He reinterpreted some of these passages, and suggested that others of them had been rendered irrelevant by changed conditions. He also dismissed the argument (based upon the writings of Aristotle) that it is wrong to charge interest for money because money itself is barren. He said that the walls and the roof of a house are barren, too, but it is permissible to charge someone for allowing him to use them. In the same way, money can be made fruitful.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29427716)
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Date: December 21st, 2015 3:22 PM Author: Stirring saffron black woman
Why won't you live the lifestyle your parents lived? No inheritance?
And in what ways do women think much differently than men do?
100% agreed with 2.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29427450) |
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Date: December 21st, 2015 3:26 PM Author: indigo private investor
1. Father's peak income was amazing, close to 7 figures but he retired early. My siblings and I will share what's left.
2. Red pill thinking, while most if it garbage, has a kernel of truth. A women isn't your buddy, she's your girlfriend or wife, which is different than a friend.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29427468)
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Date: December 21st, 2015 3:29 PM Author: Stirring saffron black woman
What makes being a GF/wife different from being a friend? I know there are GF/wife duties that go above and beyond friend duties, but there's always a current of friendship in every great relationship.
The most successful and happy couples I know view each other as friends and equals, even if men and women have different thought processes and the couple in question divide household duties along traditional gender roles (man provides financially, woman raises kids etc).
The shitty couples are the ones who got married for more utilitarian reasons (i.e., "she's nurturing and would make a great mom") as opposed to sharing a genuine connection, mutual respect and friendship bond.
How many siblings do you have? How much is left of your dad's earnings?
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29427483) |
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Date: December 21st, 2015 3:35 PM Author: Stirring saffron black woman
I've lived a pretty full life and am younger than you, but not by much.
In what ways do you disagree?
I also think it comes down to what you want out of a relationship.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29427520) |
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Date: December 21st, 2015 7:06 PM Author: walnut karate locus
To be fair,
When you're picking out a male friend, on a deep subconscious level are you really seeking a replacement pseudo-father?
If the answer is "no," then your friendships with your male friends are, and will always be, fundamentally different from your relationships with the women you are romantically involved with. Because at the end of the day, that's one key aspect that women are looking for in a mate, irrespective of any other factors. Period full stop.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29428686) |
Date: December 21st, 2015 4:18 PM Author: anal talented university
The hardest pill for me to swallow was the realization that, apart from any that I may create, there may actually be no higher purpose to my existence.
This was acutely difficult for me, I believe, due to an unusually religious upbringing by a non-working, socially reclusive mother; in tandem with my not having any male role model around on a consistent basis, my being raised largely by a woman, herself entirely dependent on outside income (she never once worked a single day outside the home); but worse, I believe, she implanted in me her fantastical, paternalistic worldview, making me attend her church every week through my senior in high school.
This, at least according to my best friend during those years, a capable student of people and their ways, who was himself always a very high-achieving individual (would later bank a million by a combination of successful entrepreneurship and marrying wisely) and had also, while we were still in high school, represented the US abroad where he won a gold medal in the junior Olympics (real talk), the overbearingly religious upbringing I received by a female lacking any clear perspective on the practical side of things or on earning a living through her own efforts, caused me some terrific damage, my most successful friend often said.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29427791) |
Date: December 21st, 2015 4:32 PM Author: Ruddy supple ladyboy orchestra pit
this probably plays to lifestyle/decline of west;
watching my dad tell me after receiving his quarterly statement that his 401k, which he allocated according to what "the guy at the company" told him, made him lose his retirement to Global Crossing/Enron/Tyco in short order after working 20+ years. Then, he got injured on the job when a faulty lift gate on a trailer fell on his hand. He was told by someone to get a lawyer for your WC claim. He did that. Was brought in by his boss (a guy who LITERALLY was taught how to drive a truck by my dad and later HIT THE FUCKING LOTTERY and bought the company) who said "why would you do this to me? get a lawyer and betray me?" and was fired. When I told him to sue for wrongful termination, he didn't because "it's his business, I will find new work" which he did. Anyways. I saw this just man. This good man, completely screwed over, and I realized that 1) I will have to take care of my parents in their old age because they will have nothing and 2) honesty/loyalty/hard work better be their own reward, because bad shit happens to good people.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29427892) |
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Date: December 21st, 2015 5:22 PM Author: Stirring saffron black woman
"honesty/loyalty/hard work better be their own reward, because bad shit happens to good people."
This x 10000
Another realization that fucked me up. The person I know who was lifepwned the most is a nice, hardworking, intelligent girl who just got divorcepwned and then layoffpwned and now has nothing. Parents were poor and then died, she's a total bootstrapper, but now has less than $100 to her name after getting layoffpwned 6 months ago in MFH. She had a $200k/year job, but little savings.
It also chaps my ass when dumb assholes somehow find their way into a successful and lucky situation.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29428113) |
Date: December 21st, 2015 5:43 PM Author: fuchsia community account
Poasted above, but thinking about this more:
1. Realizing that I'm getting old. I think this really hit in my early 30s. Everything that used to seem so distant started to get real: Thinking about my own health and realizing that I have to be [pro]active or I'll balloon like the rest of my blood relatives, starting to get sore from stupid shit like moving or pulling weird muscles in my back or hips from normal activities, my parents aging physically but also starting to act old, my last grandparent dying and realizing that my parents are next in line, approaching the end of the sensible childbearing years (my wife is a few years older), and, not flame, the poasts on XO about how we'll see our fathers 25 more times ever.
2. Coming to realize that my dad--who's had a lot of professional success--isn't a perfect man. He's human and has/had a complex relationship with his own parents, and his relationship with my mom isn't as perfect as I had always thought. I guess he feels like he can talk to me about this now, but not sure that I prefer it this way.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29428230) |
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Date: December 21st, 2015 6:01 PM Author: Stirring saffron black woman
This.
My dad still won't do that with me. He won't admit fallibility, or even discuss with me what makes him a man. He won't talk about his life before he met my mom, he won't talk to me about what made him fall in love with my mom (all he says is "she's frugal, cooks well enough, and knows how and when to shut up.").
Parents admitting to their children that they are human is a very credited life experience, and shows how much your parents value you not just as their progeny, but as a real part of the family.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29428329) |
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Date: December 21st, 2015 6:06 PM Author: Soul-stirring crackhouse
"Parents admitting to their children that they are human is a very credited life experience, and shows how much your parents value you not just as their progeny, but as a real part of the family. "
i think that this is a very important part of growing up. my father died when i was quite young and i still have this child's image of him as a perfect, all-knowing being, even though he was a pretty regular guy, probably had his faults, etc. it certainly made me more motivated to achieve in school, work, etc. since i was comparing myself to an unrealistic standard.
i wonder to what extent people like bill clinton (whose dad also died young) were similarly motivated to achieve because they never got to know their main male role model as a fallible human being.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29428359) |
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Date: December 21st, 2015 6:10 PM Author: Stirring saffron black woman
And that's the flipside. If you always see your father as this unassailable hero, you'll be motivated to achieve to be more like him.
I remember all the shit I wanted to do when I was a kid just because my dad did the same shit.
The hardest part of my situation is that my dad still views himself as the infallible (at least with respect to me) paterfamilias, but I can point out a thousand ways in which he's a normal, flawed man.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29428379) |
Date: December 21st, 2015 7:13 PM Author: walnut karate locus
To be fair,
Watching my parents slowly start to become the children in our relationship.
Realizing that we truly all live and die alone, and any feeling to the contrary is nothing more than an illusory facade that we create to numb the existential loneliness that might otherwise paralyze us. If we're lucky, we might be permitted to enjoy living under that delusion until we pass away from this universe forever. If we're unlucky, we will have it ripped away by the very people we believed we were "closest" to.
Coming to terms with the fact that Freaks and Geeks will probably never be rebooted.
Prolapse really does occur.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29428755) |
Date: December 21st, 2015 9:37 PM Author: scarlet lodge background story
1. That my level of happiness is immutable.
2. That I am a terrible person and emotionally vacant; incapable of having a meaningful relationship with anyone. This too is immutable.
3. I am a truly excellent lawyer.
4. 3 will not change 1 or 2 and is, in fact, a symptom of whatever caused 1 and 2.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29429790) |
Date: December 21st, 2015 10:12 PM Author: Bearded Trailer Park
It took until adulthood to realize the essential meaninglessness of life? For all my intellectual and social deficits, I had this down by the time I was 12.
Tbf, it was only after working for a few years I accepted that my autismal and attentional difficulties rule out conventional success, which is hard to swallow if you are a complete failure in every other aspect of life. Not sure where I go from here
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29430017) |
Date: December 22nd, 2015 5:30 PM Author: Submissive library
Had a long term GF who was back and forth for a good year. I have a big cock. All her friends/sisters begged her to get over me let me go but she just couldn't, she was hooked on the sex. She'd break up and see a new guy for a few weeks but always come running back.
One of these time the new guy had a bigger cock and she was gone, never heard from her again. I had access to her gchat the entire time.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29434716) |
Date: December 22nd, 2015 5:42 PM Author: wonderful associate
People do what they want
People have their lives organized in the way that works for them, for good or ill
A lot of times people get pissed off over things they do not care about and demand things they do not want... Watch for these behaviors in yourself and beware of them in others.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29434805) |
Date: December 27th, 2015 8:55 AM Author: Boyish milky pozpig
teeth are just TTT
fucking bullshit nice genome faggots
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29461009) |
Date: March 2nd, 2016 10:17 PM Author: fragrant degenerate
didn't exist for billions of years... will live for maybe 80 years... will not exist for billions of more years
ITS ALL FUCKING BULLSHIT
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29965722) |
Date: March 2nd, 2016 10:22 PM Author: Khaki Balding Hell Patrolman
just had a new one. that everything about me is ME. my teeth, my anus, my dick. but who made Me? i am not just my mind, or how i feel. i am all my parts, all my connections. sure, my mind is what i feel, through my nervous system. but i am my parts. but wtf am i? a chair, a computer...that shit was made for a purpose. what is my purpose?
also, i remember like half a year ago someone gave me a bible as a gift. the next day i threw it in the trash. thats what i think about the bible answering me my question.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#29965762) |
Date: February 19th, 2017 12:45 AM Author: Fishy exciting son of senegal
That I, like you and everyone else, will probably be dead and forgotten in a generation.
No lie, when I was 18, I thought I was meant for greatness- that I'd have to never worry about prole shit like money, that I would be so fucking successful and better thatn 99.99 pct of the population.
I thought I was really smart.
Turns out I'm just a Salieri than a Mozart.
And afterwards, I realized that I don't have "it"- whatever it is taht makes people that may not be "smarter" than me succeed, I don't have it.
Somehow, these people could go on like they were the best in the room at whatever they're doing, but I knew that they weren't yet they were able to convince themselves that they were- and that led to their success.
I however engaged in this impostor syndrome- where I somehow felt that not being the top 0.1 pct in whatever I do didn't matter. I think this contributed me to flaming out of my UG
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#32653207) |
Date: February 19th, 2017 12:57 AM Author: Electric Poppy Area
Sometimes you gotta be fucking ruthless in business
Time waits for no man
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3075784&forum_id=2#32653268)
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