Eta: this all belies your statement about being mature, in a good place etc etc

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4956431&forum_id=2#43381647)

Telling the truth feels good.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4956431&forum_id=2#43381676)

would you find it easy to completely abstain from engaging someone who follows you around on the bort all day trying to provoke you?

keep in mind that he's being as cruel and personal as he possibly can.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4956431&forum_id=2#43381692)

*follows with even more disgusting textual content, previously thought impossible*

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4956431&forum_id=2#43381702)

nevertheless, if i lived in la i'd try to fuck you.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4956431&forum_id=2#43381648)

and thanks! it's brave to admit you'd fuck a 30yo white woman

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4956431&forum_id=2#43381750)

it's impossible to separate flame from reality here

well shouldn't he be blocked, or are these old?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4956431&forum_id=2#43381775)

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Date: November 3rd, 2021 6:13 PM

Author: custom prebuilt gaming pc gf

in early 2017, after a tumultuous on-and-off period during which we both behaved like lunatics, i blocked his # and set up a gmail filter so all his emails would skip my inbox and go into their own folder. (i'm glad i didn't just set it to delete them bc now i have all this evidence for my protective order.)

there was a stretch of time in 2018 when i gave him a chance to be on good terms w me. i had to cut him off again in december after a few outbursts. the 708 emails in question date from dec 2018 to aug 2021.

the reason i started talking to him again in august was bc i got back on here and he started following me around in threads and emailing me from new email addresses. he was trying to provoke me and i took the bait and responded to one. then we fell into talking again. i guess it felt like everything would be easier if we could be cool again. every day, i encouraged him to find someone else and move on. i reminded him of all the ways i'd been a shitty gf, told him he was still young and attractive and deserved the best. i listed our fundamental incompatibilities and insisted over and over again that we couldn't be together.

ur right that i did tell him about my dating exploits. he knew i kissed one guy and didn't openly flip out. but when i told him i had a date that actually went well and that i "hooked up" w the guy, declining to give more details, he went absolutely insane. he sent me 7 entire screens of unhinged snapchat messages in a row with no response from me. here's a sampling: https://imgur.com/a/uGZMvOE

so ya i mean it was obviously poor judgment to let this person back in my life, but i don't think it was crazy so much as naive. and i hope this demonstrates that for the vast majority of the time since we broke up, i was staying far away. ik i was weak and he broke me down but i didn't actively want this.

( http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4950349&forum_id=2#43381222 )

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4956431&forum_id=2#43381782)

you were pumo for a while. why don't you take a break and do that again? i genuinely enjoy your poasting (esp bobs and vagine). i feel like you're going to continue to engage this guy and eventually disappear for months/years again out of frustration. just go completely anon for a while. unless the only reason you come here is the attention from random internet losers. which, if so, you're going to have to put up with the attention seeking trolling.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4956431&forum_id=2#43381817)

she just exited a three year old relationship with a chipotle employee (didn't actually work there)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4956431&forum_id=2#43381825)

she's clearly insane. but what's your excuse? your behavior seems 100x worse.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4956431&forum_id=2#43381831)

email me at :) and we can hook up when i'm in la cutie ;-*

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4956431&forum_id=2#43381853)

thank

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4956431&forum_id=2#43381855)

Still talking about a BPD ex who isn't you, obviously.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4956431&forum_id=2#43381787)

edit for slightly more info:

- started dating guy mid 2015

- i was a shitty, jealous, emotionally abusive gf for months.

- perhaps in response to my abuse, he started going crazy too. he became very controlling and paranoid and demanding. i could give several examples of this but i really don't want to go into it. he also displayed concerning paranoid behavior unrelated to the relationship.

- by late 2016, it was super fucked. on and off, push and pull, lots of crying and yelling and craziness all around.

- in early 2017, we cut it off permanently. i blocked his number, but verizon still showed me his phone calls (and his texts when i booted up in power-saving mode), so i know that at this point he started sending dozens to hundreds of unhinged texts per month, calling regularly, and emailing.

- in mid or late 2018 i contacted him. i was going to be near where (i thought) he lived and i suggested meeting up.

- we were on ok terms for a bit, but he had a few tantrums and i cut him off again in dec 2018.

- he sent the 708 emails in https://www.xoxohth.com/thread.php?thread_id=4950349&forum_id=2 between dec 2018 and aug 2021.

- in august of this year, we started talking again. a couple weeks ago, i told him i hooked up with a guy and he flipped out (see snapchat messages above). i told him if he ever contacted me again, i would file a restraining order.

- now he's following me around on the bort harassing me (and has emailed me a couple times, so even if i can't prove to the judge that he's poasting, i still have proof that he reached out). i'm working on the restraining order paperwork.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4956431&forum_id=2#43381811)