Lately, I added chronic pain to the mix.

Don't tell me "it's depression". It may be, what I need is a fucking solution.

Is there a treatment for this? Something that could help me fix it fast?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5508380&forum_id=2#47521810)

For those who think that's the solution, sorry to disappoint you, but no, it isn't. It may temporarily make you feel good, but I honestly feel like lately, just a 5k drains the shit out of me and I need a full day to recover.

I need the energy to do a 5k, and then do some work at home, then go out for a drink, then come back and watch a movie/read a book. Guess what, after the 5k, I am done for the fucking day and all I can do is lie down and listen to an audio book.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5508380&forum_id=2#47521908)

I can’t guarantee this will work for you but you may as well give it a shot

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5508380&forum_id=2#47521943)

We all know life isn't perfect and it can be absolute SPS. Everyone who claims that "I had a difficult childhood, I have to work through the issues", I mean, there will always be issues like divorce of parents, death of parents, bullying, and tragedies.

That shit *is* what happens in this world. We should be stronger as humans to be able to handle that shit, and I am not actually even complaining about the fact that I had shit happen, what I complain about is the fucking side effects that don't let me live a normal life. Why the fuck do we have those side effects?

So because of shitty family situations now you end up unable to sleep well, with chronic pain and fatigue, etc? JFC, God really created us in his image.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5508380&forum_id=2#47521956)

So I am always in fear that I will lose what I've been able to accomplish to this day, because everything has been lost thus far.

But there's no way to convince yourself that things will be alright because there's no God, or if there's a God, he's constantly fucking us over. Then you look at the rest of the world and realize not only can you lose everything, you can get blown up into pieces by other humans.

It really is obvious that this shitworld is simply hell itself and we're here to go through the nightmare.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5508380&forum_id=2#47521977)

Or regular micro doses?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5508380&forum_id=2#47522355)

I don’t even think it’s the drug companies. Drug policies are created by retards who will fixate on people who have a bad trip and then ignore all the people who off themselves or suffer while being treated by garbage drugs.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5508380&forum_id=2#47522331)

I’m not so sure they magically cure depression for everyone brother. Just consider it something to try a few times (and starting with low doses) and see what unfolds. The experience can be emotionally difficult at times so just be ready for that.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5508380&forum_id=2#47529934)

"The fatigue that often comes with cancer is called cancer-related fatigue. It's very common. Between 80% and 100% of people with cancer report having fatigue. The fatigue felt by people with cancer is different from the fatigue of daily life and different from the tired feeling people might remember having before they had cancer.

People with cancer might describe it as feeling very weak, listless, drained, or “washed out” that may decrease for a while but then comes back. Some may feel too tired to eat, walk to the bathroom, or even use the TV remote. It can be hard to think or move. Rest might help for a short time but does not make it go away, and just a little activity can be exhausting. For some people with cancer, this kind of fatigue causes more distress than pain, nausea, vomiting, or depression."

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5508380&forum_id=2#47522423)

for exercise, don't focus on mindless shit like running which can present as many downsides as the cardio upside. work on mobility and fundamental strength. if you can't do ten perfect dead hang pullups/30 completely clean chest-to-floor pushups in a slow, controlled fashion, you're not in good shape. prioritize flexibility and dynamic movement. there are tons of fat flabby middle-aged people with chronic pain who are nonetheless avid hikers and runners.

that's really all you can do other than seek some counseling or whatever else you need to improve your mental state. the fact that you think this has been a creeping issue since your 20s and go to something like XO for help suggests that you are not properly addressing your issues.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5508380&forum_id=2#47523245)

That's not what it means. It means psychiatrists in the US are useless.

I'm not exclusively coming to xo to address my issues, I ask around in places where it's ok to say you're depressed. XO is known to be full of depressmos and the shroom suggestion isn't terrible, so something good came out of this.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5508380&forum_id=2#47524178)